The Same World

People from all around the world, Blacks, Iranians, Indians, Brits(the whole lot!) had come together in this world of oppurtunity at the knee of the country. They renamed it Bengaluru recently, but its the same Bangalore to everyone else. The weekend was my chance to get away from the monotonous classes and college, and i thought that it would be good for me to experience a new city for a break, after visiting Delhi for every other weekend that i wanted a break. A close friend was there and so was one who i had known since the time i can remember, they were the ones who had taken upon them the responsibility of showing me around and letting me crash at night when the whole day was spent at attaining the level of satisfaction, that "fun" would bring. And if we were satisfied with the fun we had, we'd call it a night.

Fun can never be measured with points and numbers, but when it was the turn of someone i thought i knew, it was a whole different ball game! We got into the best clubs in the city without the cover charges because of his contacts, and he thought it was nice to flaunt to his old friend about how much he had achieved. Sadly enough, my decisions were involuntary as, on it rested the grumpiness or happiness of the faces of two other individuals, one he was in love with and the other was just a part of his weekend routine of "compulsive fun".

The other two were sensible people but just at the wrong place at the wrong time, i pitied them, but i understood their position for the past couple of months, and i would exactly know how they felt as rational beings to be part of this ridiculous lifestyle. End of the month, no money, expectations are supposed to be low and fun is supposed to take a back seat, survival strategies have to be thought over, survival, it seemed, had a different definition in this guy's head. My best friend was by my side during this ordeal that i would call educational, if the subject of one's interest was character understanding.

Superbikes were out by midnight, and they weren't ridden for the thrill or the adrenaline rush, but to pick up the women who were scantily clad in their branded vaults of wastage, money was around, Bling was dust, the air was contagious, trust me, not in a good way.

Intimidation was felt around the room, everyone was talking about the one who looked the best or the one who didn't know if she was wearing the skirt as a hat or a hat as a skirt. Superficial is what it is called. Cell phones were worth as much as the per capita income of Zaire, Fast cars were parked on the driveway, the occupants lived 2 blocks away, but they had to drive, what if the dust of the city took away the shine of their overtly decked face and weeks of planning inches of placing the ever-shining make-up. We were the laggers, the broke people who had to be there because we got in for free, and we had to make our presence felt, never ever had i experienced forceful partying, i guess there is always a first time for everything, it was pool side, the numbers started pouring in, and one wouldn't once think twice about calling our country one of the poorest in the world, at this rate, we were the richest in this world and all the other ones.

"Shake what your mamma gave you"...hahahah, thats what i thought, if only someone had rattled their brains when they were heading into this path towards nothingness and popularity, they would actually shake their teeny-weeny microscopic brains and then make decisions which would stop their own selves from the wrath of contagious showing off and power flashing...

I love music, but it is definitive for every single person, i would rather sit in a corner, drink something that would not cost the sky, and have my time with my close friends, and meet their acquaintances and grow a network which would last, and which would be originally valuable, but here value had a different definition all together, i guess materialism took over for this weekend. If we had to define a church in their terms, it would be a building made of gold and plated with platinum just in case the markets fell and gold prices went down!! It wouldn't matter who was in it.

Relationships were born, some destroyed, passes made, rejections taken, Women danced, the men watched while moving. A 'woman' knew she was the tallest amongst all of the other present at that party, so she thought it was a good idea to walk around the pool fifty times, so people could take a closer look at her and then come to know the truth, that she was actually the tallest and the only transvestite at that party posing as a woman, i have nothing against a transvestite, they have a right to party too, but not as woman, come as you are.

It's unbelievable how much people change in minutes, and how people have changed in years, i don't blame anyone, just the meal on the plane, it was the first satisfactory portion on an airline, which had never happened before, but since i paid enough on the weekend, this was god's way of saying, when you down in the dumps, the higher plane, no matter if it was still underground would feel like heaven, i'm back home, i spoke to the people who meant a lot, and i sent my message to someone who i thought meant a lot, a lot has changed, it was a weekend, Life's too quick, i have to make the best of it, this time, it was decided and planned, next time, it will be.

Whats with the vocabulary?

I was bored to death, the morning was lazy as lazy can be. There was that nice song playing in the back, yes, as a personal soundtrack of life, it could have very well been a movie.
Reading random blogs sometimes please me, and i sometimes wonder if people ever did this as a thing to while away time. i stumbled upon a couple which were beyond my personal realm of understanding, as if it was some code that my brain had to decipher and then the mind would understand what my eyes were seeing, they were words, words that i had never ever seen before. I agree i am not a compulsive reader, nor do i prefer to remember words, my conversation is limited to the understandable level. Layman is what i would term myself as, well universal appeal might not be the motive of these bloggers, they feel they need to show their talents(so to speak) through words which the world would need a dictionary to understand. i haven't met people who speak like this, nor do i feel that it is imperative to learn and understand words which i would never use in a normal sit down with someone. That, which i call real life.

Do they write their blogs in Microsoft word, and then keep looking for synonyms for their simpler words? or do they seriously think that they would dream of using those codes in real life! i wish them luck, and i thank them for giving me this opportunity to write something about! I never said they weren't useful, tickled my funny bone, gave me a laugh, and i went on with my life with another song playing in the back, this was a phase, a nice little phase, rush of emotions, bunch of questions, all answered with one little blog! writing helps!

Why people do what they do...

As i listen to trouble by coldplay, i seriously start thinking about a life without one. Marvellous is what it would be termed as, but since no one has the pleasure of leading a marvellous life, i start thinking about how someone would figure out the definition of a perfect life, it might be a day long but it has to be perfect, and it would be a fairytale ending. "happily ever after" would be carved on one's tombstone. Tombstone here could represent anything which is everlasting or which goes on and on as a legacy.

This post comes only a few days after the world was shocked by an act of madness, he was crazy to be shooting all of those people in that hall, it depresses me to even term myself human, after the massacre at Virginia Tech. We as humans are capable of doing such amazing as well as such horrible things, that makes me wonder if there was a supreme power or just evolution, if we have evolved into a stage where we can make our decisions which may affect the lives of others, do we have that power?? do we possess the necessary intelligence to be living in this world of oppurtunities and mishaps?? maybe.
The world here on the internet is so connected and as if everyone was working together here, maybe that is what is missing, the sense of belonging and the sense of terming us as a community more than terming us as individuals, maybe that would bring about a change in how the world is progressing today.

Some things have happened in the past that i regret now, but i don't regret the circumstances that i was in, probably if i wasn't in that place at that time, i probably wouldn't know how to react if i faced it again at some point of time in the future, i forgive easily but i do not forget, because i believe that circumstances and situations make people do what they do, of course leaving aside the maniacs on a killing spree. When someone abuses or reacts, its denial. Anger, distress and anxiety are all expressions of weakness according to Freud, if it was so, then every human being is weak in one sense or another, no one is perfect. Blink decisions help us to make most of our changes, numerous calculations and amazing pros and cons are discussed in that fifth of a second in which we make our move. The perception of good and bad comes with the inclusion of the past and the teachings, if we learnt well, we live well.

Circumstances are the only way we learn and the only way we regret or forget, the past is so important in our present lives that we don't stop to think once about why, how and what happened.

If there is a God
I know he likes to rock
He likes his loud guitars
His spiders from mars


Who are you this time?
Are you one of us, flying blind
Cause I'm down here throwing stones
While you're so far from home